Sorry for not posting here for so long. I had some things I needed to figure out and I shut down for a while. As so many of us do. This is the most personal piece I have ever shared. I’m grateful to the Urban Howl for publishing it and helping me spread awareness. If you choose to read, please know that it is deeply intense and very triggering. Many know that I have been trying to embrace my triggers rather than let them own or control  me.  Trying to Shine some light as to why certain  things cause me to react so deeply. I truly believe that is the way to heal. It’s not easy. Far from it. But running from what triggers our deepest pain doesn’t help either. Thanks for reading. @theurbanhowl